Shalom Auslander’s new memoir, “Feh,” is not your typical coming-of-age story. It’s a raw, often hilarious, and surprisingly poignant exploration of a lifetime grappling with self-contempt. Auslander, known for his darkly comedic novels, dives into his own experiences with a brutal honesty that is both shocking and strangely comforting.
The title, “Feh,” a Yiddish expression of disgust or disdain, encapsulates Auslander’s relationship with himself. He meticulously details his journey from a childhood marked by insecurity and a constant battle with his own self-worth to a life filled with self-sabotage and a profound sense of inadequacy. He doesn’t shy away from the absurdity of his internal struggles, often finding humor in the depths of his self-loathing.
Auslander’s writing is sharp and witty, his observations both insightful and relatable. He deftly weaves personal anecdotes with larger cultural anxieties, exploring the complexities of identity, Jewishness, and the ever-present pressures of societal expectations. He isn’t afraid to poke fun at his own neurotic tendencies, creating a darkly comedic narrative that is both funny and deeply affecting.
“Feh” is a deeply personal and ultimately hopeful exploration of self-acceptance. It’s a reminder that we are all flawed, and that finding peace with ourselves is a lifelong journey, often paved with moments of self-doubt and self-deprecation. Auslander’s courage in sharing his vulnerability allows readers to connect with their own struggles, finding humor and solace in his honest and engaging narrative. He offers a unique perspective on self-contempt, reminding us that even in the face of our deepest insecurities, there is room for laughter, self-discovery, and ultimately, acceptance.
